I love Christmas.
I love the chill in the air, I love snowy weather, I love Christmas music, decorations and Christmas lights. I love trying to find that one perfect gift for each person I love. I love my Christmas dishes, and even though I think it's a tradition going by the wayside, I love getting Christmas cards in the mail.
I'm a little down about Christmas right now, though. I keep seeing my friends' pictures on Facebook of their pretty trees and houses all decked out and I'm just so overwhelmed with the idea of getting ready for Christmas. I have no clue how I did it last year, having just finished chemo. I am almost four weeks post-op and I still have zero energy. I don't know if this is normal or not. I know I had major surgery and it will take a long time for my body to heal. But is it ok to still get so worn out so easily? I don't know. What I do know is that I have no decorations out, only a few Christmas presents bought and no cards written out.
Part of the problem is my schedule is all messed up. Normally I decorate my house the day after Thanksgiving, since I don't do any Black Friday shopping. This year that day was J's birthday and we went to Dallas, not getting home until late yesterday. While it was really a great family time, our road trip really wore me out and I didn't have the motivation to do any decorating today.
Tomorrow I have to go back to Dallas for an appointment with Dr T. If I'm not too worn out, maybe I can start getting my house all Christmas-y on Tuesday. I'd like to get our tree soon, too, but J is very sick with a fever, cough, and fatigue, so no telling when either one of us will be up for Christmas tree shopping.
I think tomorrow morning I will at least put my wreath on the door. As I keep saying.... baby steps.