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I am a wife, a mom, a daughter, a sister and a friend.
I've learned that who you have in your life matters more than what you have.
Thank you for stepping in to my world!

Sunday, January 30, 2022

Kicking cancer's ass - day 3078

GRATITUDE...
(Yes, that is capitalized for a reason.)

I don't even have the words to express how grateful I am for my village. 

❤ My husband, who dropped everything (even though work is busy) to fly up to NY with me (and he HATES to fly).  He is the very definition of a supportive partner and I could not do life without him. 

๐Ÿš‚ My son, who abruptly took over running our household, including parenting duty of a 15 year old. 
๐ŸŒป My daughter, whose faith in God lifted me up when I needed it most.
๐ŸŒผ My mom, who has always given me unwavering support.
๐Ÿ“ My mom friends who have selflessly taken K under their wings while we were away, giving her rides, mending her dress, taking her to get pampered and sharing photos from last night's Winter Formal when I couldn't be there. 
๐Ÿ’› My friend, who is always on call for Dexter duty, who loves my dog as much as I do and is always, always available when I need something. 
๐Ÿ• My son's girlfriend, who is a calm and steady presence in his life, and another of our fur baby caretakers, and Dexter's favorite person.  
๐ŸฅŽ My son's boss, who immediately sent him home from work and gave him as much time off as needed when she learned of my dad's passing. She's not only a great manager but a wonderful friend to me. 
๐Ÿงก My sister-in-law, with whom I share a job, who has worked a lot of extra days so I could be here in NY.
๐Ÿ’™ My hubby's work family, from his brother and his job foreman to all of the employees on the job site sending prayers. 
๐Ÿฅค My godmother who delivered a much-needed cold drink during one of the long, long days spent at my dad's bedside.  The 30 minute visit with her was the highlight of that day. 
๐Ÿ‘ฉ‍❤️‍๐Ÿ‘จ My dad's longtime companion who took amazing care of him 24/7 for many, many years.  She gave him a loving home and I'm forever grateful. 
๐Ÿ™ All of my family and friends, both near and far, who have prayed for us, called and sent messages of support and love. 


Saturday, January 22, 2022

Kicking cancer's ass - day 3070

January 22nd is Celebration of Life Day.  

Gratitude...

So blessed to celebrate THIS man's life.  So blessed to call this man my dad.  So blessed to spend this time with him.  So blessed that I can tell him over and over "I love you Dad".  He is so deserving of being celebrated.  

Also incredibly blessed that my husband, who HATES to fly, insisted on coming with me.  He's my rock and I don't think I could do this trip without him.  
He told me, "If you need to go, then I need to go with you."

Even the incredibly hard days can be a blessing.  Please pray for my family.  ๐Ÿ™

Monday, January 17, 2022

Kicking cancer's ass - day 3065

Gratitude...


After yesterday's pity party post, I needed to talk about something that makes me happy.  These two make me happy.

I am so blessed that J found someone who perfectly fits him.  She is his first girlfriend.  He is her first boyfriend.  They've been together for two and a half years.

They are two peas in a pod, and you will not find a nicer, more kind couple anywhere.

Sunday, January 16, 2022

Kicking cancer's ass - day 3064

Yeah, I've missed a few more days.  I'm not even going to try to catch up.
You know what? 

I'm not even going to do a "gratitude" post today. ๐Ÿ˜ถ


2022 can stick it where the sun don't shine ๐ŸŒฉ because it's been nothing but storm clouds hanging over my head and over everyone around me. 

My washer AND dryer are broken.
I am STILL fighting this stupid cold. 
My daughter ended up in the ER a few nights ago with severe stomach pain. 
My dad in a care facility has COVID. 
My beloved (but stupid) Cowboys lost their playoff game today. 
The high school postponed their winter plays... one of which my daughter had the lead role in. 


I'm tired, God. 
I'm tired of worrying. 
I'm tired of worrying about COVID and about money and about work and about my family's health. 
I'm tired of the sad state of affairs our country is in. 
I'm tired of sadness and sickness and stress. 

I want to find the "every day is a gift" mentality... but right now every day is one big huge struggle. And I just want to talk to my big brother ๐Ÿ˜ข

Also please pray for my dear friend Abby.  She lost her mom this morning.  ๐Ÿ’”

Tuesday, January 11, 2022

Kicking cancer's ass - day 3059

Do you know what is bad about life during a pandemic?
Aside from people getting sick and dying, of course.


It seems like you are not allowed to simply have a common cold anymore.  

For the past few days I have been under the weather.  I have a sore, scratchy throat that's making me cough.  My head feels fuzzy, and overall I just feel like crud.  I've had about two thousand cups of hot tea with honey.  I'm running out of mugs.  And spoons. And sugar.

What I do not have is a fever or a headache or body aches or fatigue or congestion.
I do not have COVID.  I know, because I took a test.  I also know because I've had it before, and it gives me the worst headache of my life.  And a fever.  And body aches.  And fatigue.  

You get my point.

I gave K a t-shirt last year that says "Calm down Karen, it's just allergies".  It's meant to be funny, but it's also not.  I mean, God forbid you sneeze in public during the pandemic.  Students at her school can't even go to the nurse to get Advil for cramps... because if you need Advil you must have COVID.  

Oh, I'm not supposed to be complaining, am I.  Ok... so...
Gratitude...

I'm grateful that ALL I have is a cold.

Monday, January 10, 2022

Kicking cancer's ass - day 3058


We are eleven days into the new year and I'm not doing a great job of posting every day.  See... this is why I don't make new year's resolutions.  I suck at them.  ha!

Let's see... Gratitude...
Yesterday (when I was supposed to write this) was a Monday.  It was also my Monday off.  I'm off every other Monday, and even though I had to get up to take K to school, and Dexter to the groomer, and K to the doctor, and K back to school... it's really a good Monday when you don't have to go to work. 

 

 

Sunday, January 9, 2022

Kicking cancer's ass - day 3057

Gratitude...

I love my quirky kitty who loves boxes. 


Goose ๐Ÿˆ‍⬛๐Ÿ’™

Saturday, January 8, 2022

Kicking cancer's ass - day 3056

Gratitude...

Twenty-two years ago I received my first email ever from my hubby.  We "met" online the night before. 

I still have that email. ๐Ÿ’˜

Friday, January 7, 2022

Kicking cancer's ass - day 3055

Gratitude...

I'm not thankful my daughter is a teen mom.  ๐Ÿคฃ
I am amused to see her walking out of school with her "baby" and all paraphernalia that comes with it.  
This is a project for her Child Development class and she will have to care for baby "Requisha" 24/7 until Monday.  

Good luck Kels.

Thursday, January 6, 2022

Kicking cancer's ass - day 3054

Gratitude...

Playing the part of the audience while Hubby reads through lines with K... it touches my heart that this man who had zero theater exposure before his daughter found a passion for it will sit and read through scripts with her for hours.  ๐Ÿฅฐ  (she has the lead so there are a LOT of lines to go over!)

Wednesday, January 5, 2022

Kicking cancer's ass - day 3053

Whelp....I already missed a day.  
Hangs head.

My only excuse is that my son shared germs and they finally caught up to me, sunk in and dug their claws in me.  I was TIRED. 

Gratitude...
I love working for my hubby, and sharing a job with my sister-in-law.  It just so happened that the day I felt cruddiest was my first day off (we rotate 5 days on, 5 days off).

Tuesday, January 4, 2022

Kicking cancer's ass - day 3052

Monday Night Football between the Steelers and the Browns.  Yawn.  I could not have cared less about that game. 

But wait.... I kinda did care. 

Gratitude...

I am in no way, shape or form a fan of the Pittsburgh Steelers or Big Ben....
However watching Roethlisberger take a knee on that last snap in victory formation in his last game at Heinz Field... watching him hugging his teammates and family on the field... acknowledging the fans of the city that had embraced him as their QB for almost two decades.... watching him walk a lap around the stadium to high five those fans and soak it all in... you could tell he didn't want that night to end.

It was obvious that Ben's emotions were close to the surface all night, and the football fan in me just had to feel for the guy who was most likely playing his last home game after 18 years with the Steelers. 

THAT is one of the big reasons I'm such a sports fan... moments like that. ๐Ÿˆ๐Ÿˆ

https://www.espn.com/nfl/story/_/id/32989458/pittsburgh-steelers-qb-ben-roethlisberger-gets-wish-ends-last-game-heinz-field-win

Monday, January 3, 2022

Kicking cancer's ass - Day 3051

Gratitude...

On this day 8 years ago I had my second cancer-related surgery, and it was a doozy.  Nine hours to rid my body of cancer.  Hubby had a stressful day of waiting.  I had a great nap.

A mastectomy is not fun.  It's not a "boob job".  It's major surgery that removes body parts.... parts I was rather fond of.  I couldn't lift my arms over my head for weeks.  I lived in button down pajamas.  I had to take showers with drains hanging from a lanyard around my neck. 
I didn't look like me. 
I finally looked sick.


Even so, I'm grateful for that surgery, and my scars from it. 
They mean I was stronger than cancer.
  ๐Ÿ’ช



Sunday, January 2, 2022

Kicking cancer's ass - Day 3050


Gratitude...
Even though my beloved Cowboys didn't win today, this dog in his Cowboys shirt makes me happy.  ๐Ÿˆ๐Ÿˆ๐Ÿ•

Saturday, January 1, 2022

Kicking cancer's ass - Day 3049


Happy New Year! 
The last couple of years have been filled with so many blessings. But they haven't been easy.  Our world is filled with illness and strife, division and hate (thank you COVID-19 ๐Ÿ˜ก).  Life has changed so much in a very short time. 

When I was diagnosed with cancer and started treatment in August 2013, I posted in my blog EVERY DAY.  Through chemo and radiation and numerous surgeries... I wrote it all down.  It was a record of what I was going through, as well as a way to document my feelings. I posted every day for over a year... then every few days... to now maybe every few months when something major happens. 

I want to change that, so I am challenging myself to write something every day.  In a world filled with difficulty and division and illness and stress, it's easy to get caught up in complaining about life.  I don't want to do that. 

I don't make New Year's resolutions (because who needs that kind of pressure? Lol) but...

In 2022 I want to focus on the positives, the blessings, the fun and the happiness in my life.   I want to post something good about every day... something that made me laugh or smile or touched my heart. 

Gratitude...
Today I was blessed to see a video posted on Facebook of a friend singing.  It's a short phone video recorded in the car and my friend Zan is just singing along with the radio.  It's not meant to be a performance or anything like that.  But it's BEAUTIFUL.  Her voice is so pretty and I love the song (The Power of Your Loce). It made me happy. 

I don't know if you can see it if you aren't friends with her, but here's the link:
https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=10166378849245392&id=553635391

I hope 2022 is filled with the power of His love. ๐Ÿงก๐Ÿ™