I feel like a newborn baby who has her nights and days mixed up.
I wonder when I will ever have a good night's sleep again. I'm sleepy when I wake up. I'm exhausted by late afternoon. I make myself go to bed around 10-11pm. Then I wake up all night long. And when I do sleep, I have crazy, crazy dreams.
4am seems to be my magic hour. I wake up, almost wide awake, around that time every night. Nothing is wrong. I usually get up to use the bathroom. I'll wander to the kitchen to get a drink. Sometimes I'll check the weather on my computer. Then I go back to bed, eventually fall back asleep, and then curse my alarm when it goes off an hour or two later.
Yesterday I dozed on the couch for more than an hour. I guess that little bit was enough to keep me up. I made myself go to bed at midnight. I tossed and turned, made it through a couple of hot flashes by flipping my pillow over to the cooler side, and finally gave up a few minutes ago.
If the rain hasn't put a damper on it, we have to be at the fields by 7am for an 8am softball game. Getting up at 5:45 is going to be loads of fun when I'm still wide awake at 1am.
I miss the days when I could fall asleep anywhere and sleep through an apocalypse.
Think Hubby would notice if I tried this?
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