Ok, you laugh (because that is pretty funny), but that's exactly what having cancer has done to me. Well, I probably can't blame the OCD part on chemo, because I'm pretty sure I was born that way. And I can't claim PMS because I had a hysterectomy.... but I promise you being suddenly thrown into menopause at age 40 is like a permanent state of PMS. You want to talk hormones? Try having NO hormones!
I have the attention span of a toddler. I have about fifty projects I need to finish, papers all over my coffee table, stacks of medical bills and insurance papers to go through, a to-be-read pile of books bigger than me..... and most of the time all I can manage is to play a game of Trivia Crack on my phone.
It's really disconcerting and frustrating. For someone who always had it together, could multi-task with the best of them and was known for her organizational skills, feeling like this depressing. I can't accomplish anything because I either can't remember to do it, or I start and don't finish, or I get distracted and it takes me ten times longer than it should. And deep down inside I'm still a perfectionist, so I get aggravated with myself more than anything.
I haven't found a solution yet. I'm sure Hubby wishes I would. I think he's gotten used to my OCD-ness over the years. But this new and not-so-improved menopausal, forgetful, tired and grouchy woman is not the lady he married. She's in there somewhere.
I just can't remember where I put her.